新的心地

My flower arrangement of today.  Thanks to my teacher David Lu.  He is very creative.  Eventhough all of our hands and fingers are tired from twisting the leaves, great outcome.  I was extremely relaxed.  Really enjoy the class.

I made an agreement with Mika. She will create art everyday and challenge to do it for one year.  She made these earings today with LEGO.  They are beautiful!

Mika'best friend Joy since kindergarten came visit.  They haven't see each other for a while but whenever they get together, they have a hard time leaving each other.  They are both creative. Joy is tougher than Mika.  They just enjoy being with each other.  Joy's parents are very kinds and generous to other kids.  I also enjoy being with Joy mom.  Even though she just has one arm, she is very hardworking and optimistic.  Very kind and helpful to  others. They are our friends forever!

Art of Mika.  She is the happiest when she is doing art.   I love her dearly and hopefully one day she can support herself with her creativity. 

 Designs of my creative daughter.  I am very proud of her creativity.

My work of today. 4 hours of work  A friend got hurt by his buddy.  Because of pride they still didn't forgive each other.  I hear the pain.  They both need to reach out and offer a hand for the other one. Life is so short.  Don't waste time on hate.  Never regret too.

Today, I experienced the worst stiff neck (落枕） Mama mia, hurt like hell. I tried yoga  , dancing, crawling on the floor, heating pad, ...刀療法...everything. I believe all I need is to sleep. Good night

I heard a theory make me think twice of what I believed.  I usually try my best to eat and use organic food, cream, hair dye... Recently, I have allergic reaction to organic hair dye.  My neck, behind my ear I had 5 pimples.  Then my eyes were swollen.  Later my Chi-Gong master told me" if it doesn't suit you, doesn't matter if it's organic or not.  Organic cosmetics doesn't have preservatives.  It might not be as fresh.  It can cause more harm." Interesting point makes me think twice about organic again" I should listen to my heart.  不盲從

I cried in front of my son telling him how frustrated I was.  I took them to Japan to travel. They didn't go to school for a week.  I ask them to write a journal about the trip and places we went.  He told me he will have it ready by end of this week. I asked for it yesterday and extended till today by noon.  The result was unacceptable. I was so frustrated and felt like a loser mom.  I don't know what I did wrong and what more can I do.  It's all about the attitude.  It showed a lot of laziness in his work.  My husband saw me crying.  He told the kids that since they don't appreciate the trips we took them, we will stop doing that. How do I motivate my children? How do I communicate with them in peace? God, please help me.

We wanted to go to a movie. 4 people 3 opinions. Later became 2 movies we have to choose from.  I wanted to watch something educational. Kids want something entertaining.  My husband refused to watch an Indian movie he has to read the English subtitle.  There was a moment we decided we weren't going to any movies. After 30 minutes of thinking, I gave up.  I compromised and watched a stupid movie with them.  Then had Thai dinner plus ice-cream for dessert.  It isn't so bad at all. Compromise is meeting everyone in the middle.  My goal was to have family time.  And we did it.

A friend of our blog leader past away. He was a young man. Death is always a no no subject for most Taiwanese.  2014, when I got sick, I thought I was close.  Later I accept the fact that everyone will die.  All the practice of Buddhism and spirituality all try to bring us peace and hopefully die in peace.  It's very hard to leave my love ones.  However god makes the best arrangements.  Our soul is eternal.  And we will all meet again with a different body.  Once I heard a young girl said " death is eternal, life is short". Live with no regret. Got to pass this life's challenges and come back better should be the focus.  A lot of times, I feel life is just a movie and we are the actors and actress inside.  No real but so real.  Play along; act along. May everyone find peace and when it comes to death, we all let go and return back to light where we all come from.  No fear ! With courage! Bless our mind and soul!

Today, I had a talk with a young guy in his early 20th.  Because of his father, this young man joined our company since April.  He is always over sleep. Out of 13 working days of May, there were 8 absence days.  During work time, he takes several cigarettes breaks and would disappear from 11am and no body knows where he went.  He also expressed that he had learned everything. There is nothing he can learn from the QC department anymore. I only talked about working attitude and hopefully everyone would give a thumb up when I ask about how is YC and fighting for having him in their department. I always think attitude is the fundamental of everything.  And I don't take no for an answer. And I will watch him close.  Hopefully he won't disappoint me and his family.   Hopefully he can remember our conversation for the rest of his life.

My daughter has stomach pain for many days . I took her to my Chi-gong master. He said her stomach does not move.  It also has a lot to do with her attitude towards life sometimes"賴皮”. Samething happens to her digestion system.  On strike.  How interesting. Exactly what's going on with Mika.  She needs to have same enthusiasm of music, dance, art..to other things. 賴皮attitude= not moving stomach. Interesting! Our mind affects our body and health 100%.

I always feel grateful when I see people riding motorcycles in a rainy day.  I never had to ride my children nor myself in the reain, with bags... Wish everyone safe.

I got upset with my son bulling my daughter.  It really frustrates me.  I took his phone and Ipad away and got him more upset.   I believe he thinks I love Mika more..I never punish her...she gets away with everything. How do I make things fair. I hate yelling at him... Please give me more patience and love.

Today I took my husband to get reading glasses.  I really admire how he makes decisions.  He feels he just need a simple pair of glasses. No need to spend too much money and time. No need to compare. No need to sweat.  It was done in 30 mts. Simple and easy. Great lesson to learn.  He does the same for car shopping too.

We had a big family dinner.  Great time. Very Thankful. Uncle Steven, Marc, Doctor Kuo and Pauline.... Very Thankful! Bless all the mothers in the world!

I got upset with my son a few times during the trip when he fought non-stop with Mika.  For example, Mika ..., then he wouldn't stop hitting her or nagging her or make her upset..This goes non-stop even I got upset already. It's very tiring and upset when situations like this occurs.  It embarrasses me and makes me feel like a bad parent. I also feel there are many times why he does things differently than how I do it.  Different logic.   I guess he wanted me to see that he got upset with Mika. I also have to learn that everyone does things differently.  Even though I felt he isn't very observant of the situation around he. A lot of time he is very selfish.  I have to learn to accept him and love him the way he is.

白川 合掌村 my type of town. I thought I was in a dream town. Beautiful air, flowers, farm, big trees, running water surrounding each house...I love it!

Uncle Steve is a genius, a great and very successful doctor, father, brother, husband, uncle...today he gave advice to us.  He said "don't do the ordinary things. That was why I took internship in Italy, I join US Navy...for having the great experience of a life time.  my rule for my kids was to stay out of jail.  I don't control their time of play computer video games. Unless they have bad grades. " I agree 100%.

Mika tried something from Japanese Seven Eleven.  Dessert, cup noodle. She is in 7th heaven.  Doesn't take much to be happy. She told me we havr never done this.  Good! Then there would be no surprises.

I took kids out of school to be with our family from Chicago.  We are in Japan, taking Shigansen to Kanazawa now.   What a long day.  It's nice to have family that are so loving and supportive. Uncle said everything from now on is on his rich uncle.  Ha ha ha.  Just like my loving parents! I believe traveling is better than school. You learn a lot more.  Just hoping we can take it slow and take time for kids to figure out how things work.  A lot of time I wish my children can take responsibility to plan the trip.  I also hate myself to take over because I can do quicker and better. It's also learning experience for me.

Since I was a teen ager, my English teacher Mr. Sotela told me if I was depressed, I should paint my nail red, take a bath, do things I enjoy. Mika and I had a ladies' day having our nail and hair done.  And we are in 7th heaven. Ladies, it's so important to take care of our emotion!

Today I saw a YouTube video. A guy encourage dancers : to dance like a poet, express the true self. Not being pretty only, but beautiful. Beautiful to be true. You don't need to care if people laugh at you, telling you that you look stupid. You just have to be you! Yes, true to be self. Not worried about what people think.  I am just me and I am beautiful! Today Mika and I had hair and nail done.  We both tried something different.  I have 2 strips of purple hair.  Loving being different.  It's not the end of the world.

Today  I took a very sick friend to my Chi gong Doctor.  Just being open minded and accept a different point of view also stong will, without medicine, she got better and is smiling.  I am glad with the result. 轉念， so simple, so difficult too. Bless her

I worked whole day. Tired but productive.  I like to help people and feel grateful that in my life, life is paying me back the same way.  I am also thankful for those happenings around my life (I call them angels). Teaching me with their live stories. Bless everyone! Hopefully everyone finds peace inside. I did my Kriya breathing and will do shaha samati later before sleep. Good night! Sweet dream!

I finished kriya breathing, Shaha Samadi breathing twice today.  Felt great! Today in Satir class, through a sharing of a classmate, brought me to a very sad state.  Anyway, a lot of time, we are so hard on ourselves, we live in expectations we can't fulfill. We focus on the wrong thing and being strong for the wrong reasons. May everyone finds their inner strength and limitations.  Also peace and beauty in ourselves!

Today, I finished my kriya breathing, Shaha Samati.  I will keep a record everyday about my practice. My work today. HAPPY MOTHER's Day!

My Mika's art! So much inspiration! 100% 投入！ not worring about what others think.  She enjoyed so much! A true artist. I need to learn so much from her!

My daughter'creativity.  She is so good! I have to share.  She made the outfit for her doll with stein glass art material. She called it: telephone girl

Drove with my son. Saw a beautiful tree with a lot of pink flowers.  Decided to take a different route. Wala! Surprise! How beautiful! In the middle of nowhere. Do something different everyday!